12月22日 父吸引人

若不是差我的父吸引人,就没有能到我这里来的。(约六44)

神吸引我的时候,就是要运用意志的时候--我对神赐的启示有反应吗?我肯到他那里去吗?把属灵的事拿来议论,是不合体统的;神说话的时候,不要人讨论。信心不是一项智力上的举动,乃是一种道德的反应,特意要把自己投上去。我愿否绝无保留地把自己投上,照神所说的去做?若肯,就会发现自己扎根于安稳如神宝座的实体上。

传福音的时候,记得要提出意志的问题。信仰必须出于意志。意志必须顺服,而不是屈服在说服力之下,乃是立志全部投向神和他所说的话,直至不再把信心建在自己所作的事上,而是惟独信神。其中的拦阻在于我不肯信神,只信自己头脑的理解。以感觉上来说,我必须不顾一切的投注,必须凭意志相信;这样,我必须尽很大的努力,把以往对事物的看法丢弃,只对准神自己,否则便无法做到。

人有一种向自己以外去寻索的本能。是神先吸引我,我与他的首要关系,是个人的,不是理智上的。我因着神的吸引,和我决意的相信,便进入与神的关系中,然后,开始在理智上体会并明白这相交的奇妙。

祈祷◆噢,主啊,愿你大能的同在,今天如帐棚般四面环绕我,愿你的荣耀就在其中。

December 22 The Drawing Of The Father

“No man can come to Me, except the Father which hath sent Me draw him.” John 6:44

When God draws me, the issue of my will comes in at once – will I react on the revelation which God gives – will I come to Him? Discussion on spiritual matters is an impertinence. Never discuss with anyone when God speaks. Belief is not an intellectual act; belief is a moral act whereby I deliberately commit myself. Will I dump myself down absolutely on God and transact on what He says? If I will, I shall find I am based on Reality that is as sure as God's throne.

In preaching the gospel, always push an issue of will. Belief must be the will to believe. There must be a surrender of the will, not a surrender to persuasive power, a deliberate launching forth on God and on what He says until I am no longer confident in what I have done, I am confident only in God. The hindrance is that I will not trust God, but only my mental understanding. As far as feelings go, I must stake all blindly. I must will to believe, and this can never be done without a violent effort on my part to disassociate myself from my old ways of looking at things, and by putting myself right over on to Him.

Every man is made to reach out beyond his grasp. It is God who draws me, and my relationship to Him in the first place is a personal one, not an intellectual one. I am introduced into the relationship by the miracle of God and my own will to believe, then I begin to get an intelligent appreciation and understanding of the wonder of the transaction.