10月13日 沮丧与拓展

他出去到他弟兄那里，看他们的重担。（出二11）

摩西看见自己的同胞受欺压，深觉自己是他们的救星；于是按自己的义愤，伸手为他们伸冤。他为神的正义出手，神却容许人把他赶逐到绝境里去，要他在旷野牧羊四十年。时候满足，神显现告诉他去领百姓出来；摩西那时说：“我是什么人，竟能去？”摩西起初就知道自己是拯救百姓的那一位，但却先要经过神的训练。他的观点是没有错的，但在没有学会与神联合以前，他仍是未合用的工人。

我们看见神的异象，又清楚神的心意，于是着手去做；然后，是类似那四十年旷野的经历，似乎神完全不理这回事了。正当我们完全绝望，神的呼召又重新临到，我们就颤抖地说：“我是谁？”我们必须学习跨出第一大步－－“那自有永有的差遣你！”我们必须认识到凭个人的血气为神工作，是狂妄的表现；我们个人的特质，必须与神相交才能炽热起来（太三11）。我们往往着重个人对事物的看法，有异象就说：“这就是神要我做的。”但我们的步伐还未与神一致。若你正陷入失望的阶段，等着吧，辽远的拓展就在前头。

祈祷◆主啊，为着昨晚的睡眠，我感谢你；为着你既不打盹，也不睡眠，不论日夜都保护我们，我称颂你。

October 13 Individual Discouragement And Personal Enlargement

“Moses went out unto his brethren, and looked on their burdens.” Exodus 2:11

Moses saw the oppression of his people and felt certain that he was the one to deliver them, and in the righteous indignation of his own spirit he started to right their wrongs. After the first strike for God and for the right, God allowed Moses to be driven into blank discouragement, He sent him into the desert to feed sheep for forty years. At the end of that time, God appeared and told Moses to go and bring forth His people, and Moses said – “Who am I, that I should go?” In the beginning Moses realized that he was the man to deliver the people, but he had to be trained and disciplined by God first. He was right in the individual aspect, but he was not the man for the work until he had learned communion with God.

We may have the vision of God and a very clear understanding of what God wants, and we start to do the thing, then comes something equivalent to the forty years in the wilderness, as if God had ignored the whole thing, and when we are thoroughly discouraged God comes back and revives the call, and we get the quaver in and say – “Oh, who am I?” We have to learn the first great stride of God – “I AM THAT I AM hath sent thee.” We have to learn that our individual effort for God is an impertinence; our individuality is to be rendered incandescent by a personal relationship to God (see Matthew 3:17). We fix on the individual aspect of things; we have the vision – “This is what God wants me to do;” but we have not got into God's stride. If you are going through a time of discouragement, there is a big personal enlargement ahead.