她在我身上作的是一件美事。(可十四6)
爱若不能叫人忘形,就不是爱。爱若是拘谨、明智、合理、计较、从不会忘形的,那根本不是爱。那可能是感情,令人感觉温暖,却不是真正的爱。
我曾否为神成就一事而虚己忘形,不是因为责任,不是因着有用,也不是因着任何缘故,而单单因为我爱他?我有没有奉上他所看为珍贵的东西?还是我在他伟大的救恩里游手好闲,不去做周围无数正等着我去做的事?不一定是大事,才称为美妙的,日常的、平凡的俗务,都可以见证我向神的顺服。我曾否使主喜悦,正如伯大尼马利亚所做的?
有时神似乎在观察,看我们愿不愿意把真爱毫不保留地表现出来。完全归神,比个人的圣洁更有价值。个人的圣洁使我们只注视本身的洁白,叫我们十分谨慎自己的言行举止,唯恐得罪了神。若我们无保留地归神,完全的爱情就能把这些一概拋开。要除掉这个念头:“我有没有用?”要深信自己无用,这才更接近真相。因为那根本不是有用与否的问题,而在神是否看为宝贵。我们若全然归神,他每时每刻都藉着我们作工。
祈祷◆噢,主啊,愿我愈来愈渴望将爱心如衣服般穿上,以致当我与人接触,他便成为人最恒久认出的东西。
February 21 Have You Ever Been Carried Away For Him?
“She hath wrought a good work on Me.” Mark 14:6
If human love does not carry a man beyond himself, it is not love. If love is always discreet, always wise, always sensible and calculating, never carried beyond itself, it is not love at all. It may be affection, it may be warmth of feeling, but it has not the true nature of love in it.
Have I ever been carried away to do something for God not because it was my duty, nor because it was useful, nor because there was anything in it at all beyond the fact that I love Him? Have I ever realized that I can bring to God things which are of value to Him, or am I mooning round the magnitude of His Redemption whilst there are any number of things I might be doing? Not Divine, colossal things which could be recorded as marvellous, but ordinary, simple human things which will give evidence to God that I am abandoned to Him? Have I ever produced in the heart of the Lord Jesus what Mary of Bethany produced?
There are times when it seems as if God watches to see if we will give Him the abandoned tokens of how genuinely we do love Him. Abandon to God is of more value than personal holiness. Personal holiness focuses the eye on our own whiteness; we are greatly concerned about the way we walk and talk and look, fearful lest we offend Him. Perfect love casts out all that when once we are abandoned to God. We have to get rid of this notion – “Am I of any use?” and make up our minds that we are not, and we may be near the truth. It is never a question of being of use, but of being of value to God Himself. When we are abandoned to God, He works through us all the time.